I have been feeling that things were starting to go back to the way they should be. Promises of a new and better life. No more hurt and tears.
You cant handle that though...... Its always something........
BUT no more. I cant hurt anymore. I WONT hurt anymore! The more I hear and learn the less I care, the less I am affected. My heart is not made of stone but I will protect it as if the wind could blow it away.
You have your life and I have mine. I no longer feel they are truly connected. I have done everything for you. I have given myself to you completely. You are a taker. You take my love, you take my body, you take everything I do for you. What do I get in return? Heartache, disappointment, feelings of not being good enough, and wonder. My heart can not be broken anymore. I will not cry. You say sorry after every issue. that word means nothing to me anymore. If you want to be that person you always apologize for then be him. But I wont be here to watch you.
If I acted the way you do, you would have left a long time ago. I'm tired of looking like a fool. Im tired of hurting. I do not deserve anything you have given me. And I don't feel you deserve what i give you.
BUT IM STILL HERE......
IM STILL TRYING.......
